maybe its time to change

ive had a lot of time for thinking lately. one of the things thats taken the most of that time was my latest overseas adventure. i got on this briefly a few entries ago, but now im going to finish those thoughts.

my virginia days came to be pretty routine. work/school stuff during the day. norva and/or roberts in the evening. it was a fine life, sure, but over time it got a little monotonous. luckily i had some hang out time with evan and the occasional trip to tonys to mix things up a bit. though i did kind of want something more. maybe not necessarily more, im thinking "fresh" would be more accurate. theres a lot of other stuff out in the world, right? i mean, thats what ive heard. maybe id like some of that stuff. maybe i wont. maybe i should just find out...

jumping forward a bit, now im going to be moving to on. that will give me something new to freshen up my days a bit. naturally that means leaving all that va stuff behind. initially, its like, "got what i want, thats cool. ill kinda miss some of this stuff here..."

as time goes on and things get closer you get all those other feelings. like that one where you start to see that the end of an era is coming up soon and all the things that youll be putting on hold. or just flat-out ending. leaving your friends and the life youve built up behind isnt a great feeling, but sometimes it is in your best interest. the one thing that helps is knowing that im doing this because i want to, you know? i was going to have to move on at some point, and at least doing it (more or less) on my terms, its easier to deal with. i take a bit of comfort in the wisdom of the bouncing souls:

nothing gold can stay.

so there it is. its time to change and leave it all behind. after all, nothing stays the same so lets see what else is going on out there...