about a boy

i found out about robin williams death before it was big news. it was still in the 'hoax' stage and not fully believed by people. eventually it was a confirmed thing and filling every corner of the web.

my memories of the guy were limited. very limited actually. i know of flubber. i remember my brothers watching mrs doubtfire once. and i do know he was in aladdin which i probably saw once or twice. however, he was a big part of one movie that meant a lot to me.

back in 2007, i made a facebook account. one of the 'about me' questions was about my favorite movies. for as long as i can remember, they have been good will hunting and (unimportantly) the devils rejects.

why? well, around 2002, when i was living in south carolina one of my shift supervisors told me that i should watch 'good will hunting.' his reason being that i reminded him of the main character. i watched it eventually and i wont say it changed my life, but if it didnt...it came dang close.

to him, i was pretty good with that whole “computer thing” and he saw me as some kind of genius. (im not...a genius that is. i do wellish with the computers though). and to both of us i was pretty much wasting my time in a job that just wasn't doing anything for me. so long story short i saw the movie...liked it. understood his point. and in a way it was one of the nicer things ive been told in my thirty two years of life.

so after mr williams died i thought id entertain myself with some of his work. i didn't have a lot to pull from but itd been at least 10 years since seeing good will hunting, so why not dust it off, right? and by dust it off i mean open the wrapper as i hadnt seen it since buying the blu-ray back in 2012.

after watching it again as something of an adult, i definitely picked up a lot more than i did years ago. i guess i hadnt really picked up on the extra layers to the movie initially. and now i see them and can relate to a lot of that as well. all in all, the movie has aged well and is going to be holding down its spot as my favorite film for a while. likely forever.

obviously the movie wasn't fully about robin williams or even a result of his creation, but he contributed in a large way. and for that i thank him.

in fields of agony

so i guess this was something like 1988 or '87. man, just typing that out makes it look or seem like it was sooo long ago. i mean, it was. but when you see it. that really makes it hit home or whatever. kinda like that time back in teh 5421 days when i saw a picture of what my desk looked like. seeing it for myself everyday numbed me to the visual pain that it actually was. pretty sure i still didnt clean it up. so yeah, back to the main thing...

i miss doing these blogs. its more of my natural typing. and with all the tangents in tact. so yeah. soccer was the thing for young tristan. i didnt like it. but i was put on a soccer team. it started with practices where i learned that dribbling a soccer ball wasnt the same as dribbling a basketball. gladly i wasnt first in line for practicing that. wouldve made a fool of myself.

later we get on to actual games. and while my memory is a little fuzzy from those little events, i do remember that i didnt do much. lots of standing. probably more than one should in a game like that. mom says i used to sit around and pick grass with a little girl. sounds like me.

years later i was on a baseball team. man oh man how i did not/do not like baseball. apparently my mom thought it would give abe and i some time to bond. well, that didnt work. i did my soccer routine of standing around. hoping the ball wouldnt come to me. its not like i could catch or throw, so it wouldve been bad. really bad. and with my eyes i could probably barely see either.

on a side note, when i was in school i remember hanging out with paul kim during gym class. neither of us wanted to participate at all so we'd go to the back of the line and let everybody else go ahead of us. then one day coach house decided to flip the script on us by flipping the line. she started from the end. bitch.

i dont like sports. im fine with them existing or whatever. but you know...without me being involved of course.